this is me.

:: Happy Birthday ::

my little love, there is nothing i haven't told you before.  the joy you bring, the happiness we have found in parenthood, the overwhelming love.

you are a year old now.  i feel so much right now, its hard to verbalize.  surprise that a year has passed, but also as though you have been my baby for a lifetime.  i can't remember life without you. 

i remember meeting you, taking each other in as you lay on my chest; you didn't cry at all, just looked back at me.  you looked nothing like i expected, but somehow i felt as though i knew you forever.

you have become your own person - so expressive and happy and a little 'goofer', as your dad likes to call you.  you crawl on the coffee table and love playing your drums.  you love books, especially "Corduroy goes to the doctor", much to my chagrin.  you dance and dance, bouncing up and down, at the slightest hint of music.  you sing your sweet sleepy song daily, so tired yet not wanting to miss a moment.  you are gentle, opting to hand deliver balls over throwing them.  you know when we tease you and reward us with cheesy grins.  you try so hard to talk, making sounds for birds, baths, dogs, yes and no.  you flirt with people everywhere we go.

i stared at you this morning as you slept.  taking in your full lips and long eye-lashes, every part of your angelic face.  i have a one-year-old, slowly passed through my mind.  it felt strange, but also exciting and wonderful.  i love life with you, my sweet boy.  i cannot wait to see what this next year holds.

you are our treasure, cherished and loved.

love your momma